Broken hearts

I have been a slacker lately!! LOL
I have been meaning to post but Emilee takes up a lot of my time at night..she gets a little restless when she does not take a nap during the afternoon. Today she did, YEAH!!!
I ran into my ex fiance last night. We were at the firehouse picking up DH's truck and of course they were having a meeting. The friend who fixed it was talking to my hubby when he came out. I felt rude not to stop and talk to him so I did. I introduced him to Emilee, he thought it was faith..I was like no I have two now!! LOL.
we talked about his wife and how sick she has been. She has bone cancer and it looked as though she was going to loose the fight. God works in mysterious ways and she is now in remission. She had a stem cell transplant and is slowly getting her strength back. He told me after the transplant he went into respitory failure and had to have a trachea in. She has been so much and through all this she has been trying to be mother to a small child. Their daughter was an infant when she was diagnosed. I pray that God continues to heal her. No child should ever have to grow up without their mommy. I don't know what Chuck would do without her.
I am glad I got to see him. I have been thinking about him and wondering how he's been. I really do miss our friendship. That was the hardest part of breaking our engagement off. I broke his heart, something he told me last night...I know I did. It broke my heart that I had to do it, but like I told him last night if we got married we would have ended up divorced because I wouldnt have been happy.. But through all that I learned what true love is and to appreciate it that much more..Lessons Learned.

Colors of Faith

These pictures were taken a few years ago and when my dear friend Sunny posted today on Faithsisters.com about photographing your faith I immediately thought of these pictures.
My favorite season is fall and I love to take walks at a nearby state forest and take photos of the changing leaves. I love to hear the crunch beneath my feet.
My faith is ever changing like the leaves, the deep,rich regal colors represent the depth my faith has undertaken over the years. My faith at first was there but not really there..but over the course of my journey God has shown me so much more. God has provided me the opportunity to be a mother, something that I am so very grateful for.
I also love how the sun makes the leaves glisten and the colors become that much more vibrant. The sun warms me and lights my way just the way my faith does. I sometimes falter and question why? but that is when God shines brighter and leads me to the answer. Sometimes it's not right away, sometimes it takes years but it is always provided in His time.


Faith is the substance hoped for,the evidence of things not seen. Hebrews 11:1

My favorite scripture and one that I have truly lived. If not for my Faith in Him my girls would not be here. The power of Faith and what can happen when you truly put your Faith in God is unmeasurable. Put your faith in Him and see where he takes you.

Two Months old Today!!

My dear sweet Emilee is 2 months old today. She looks like she's older!! LOL Her PJ's 0 to 3 months are too small in the legs and feet. Her poor little toes are all krinckled up. Bryan dug through our storage unit to find Faith's clothes I diligently kept, only to find 0-3 and 12 months. I did find a few 6-9 months in the bottom of one tote. I know there is still a tote left. The matter is finding it.

She continues to smile all the time. I chuckle when I look in the rear view mirror and I see her not looking at her toys as I drive but her big sister, Faith..somehow I need to find a way to take a picture of that!! LOL
I am working on a LO of my two darlings Faith and Emilee. The pictures I'm using are of them at two weeks old laying in the same direction. Faith is laying on our old couch, Emilee is laying in her boppy pillow. I'm kind of stuck on the title..I will post for sure when I finish it!

He Ain't the Leavin' Kind

This is a layout I did for a lyric challenge on Faithsisters.com. The lyrics are from a song called He ain't the Leavin' Kind by Rascal Flatts.
I am very proud of this LO. It's simple, but displays a powerful
message.
The more I thought of the message in the song, I knew that it was
perfect for these pictures of the "Ground Zero Cross" as it's called by many. The steel beams to many have come to symbolize hope amid the ruins of that horrible day. Once found, many celebrated Sunday services at the site. fallen firefighters and police officer's names are scribbled on it as well as " God Bless our fallen brothers".
The days that I have visited ground zero have always been with tears in my eyes. There is so much emotion in the air, it's hard not to feel it. We were there for the fifth anniversary of 9/11. The weekend was filled with celebrations of life and remembrance of ones lost. I found the New Yorkers are the most patriotic and kind of people. They may live fast and furious but, are glad to help those in need. back to the cross..
the more that I stared at it the more I wondered why these beams were not destroyed along with everything else around it?? Was it a sign from God?? I believe, Yes! So many faithful have asked why this happened to us? If God exists, why did he not stop it? I believe that those answers can be found with the cross. God was certainly there the day the towers fell. God was there to provide comfort and peace to those who perished. God was there with tears in his eyes watching the day unfold. Did he want this to happen? No, but he could not stop it. He could only watch as we watched as so many lost their lives. The cross is a reminder to us of God's presence during that day. He does not forsake us, He's with us always, He's not the Leavin' Kind.

Psalms 145:8-9

The Lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and rich in love.
The Lord is good to all; he has compassion on all he has made.


Song Lyrics:
"He Ain't The Leavin' Kind"

They tried their best to drag him out
Of a courthouse down in montgomery
Now they want to kick him out of school
And take him off our money
They can take those words off of paper and stone
But he aint gone, no

He ain't the leavin' kind
He'd never walk away
Even from those who dont believe
And wanna leave him behind
He ain't the leavin' kind

She stayed mad at him for a lot of years
For taking her husband
Started losing her faith and thinking that
Her life meant nothin
But when she looks at those kids
She raised all by herself
She knows she had some help
Yeah she knows

He ain't the leavin' kind
He'd never walk away
Even from those who don't believe
And wanna leave him behind
He ain't the leavin' kind

No matter what you do
No matter where you go he's
Always right there
With you

Even from those who don't believe
And wanna leave him behind
He ain't the leavin' kind

Update

My poor Surf's lost last saturday. 13 to 7, we feel like part of our arm has been cut off or something. It's very strange not going to games.
Lucas did indeed retire from baseball. His mom and dad were there to see him play one last time. I took a picture of the three of them. it's going tinto his scrapbook when I get to it. I must finish 2 others that I started so long ago.
Faith has been asking about Lucas off and on. Him and I talked after the game and I told him to expect phone call now and then from her, and in his usual gracious self he told me whenever she wants to talk to him she can. I told him her birthday is coming up soon and he will try to call her on her birthday. I have to call him a few days ahead of time to remind him.

Emilee is talking to herself..it's so cute. while I'm driving she stares into the mirror and babbles to herself. She must see the baby in the mirror! She's also smiling a lot more too. She loves to look at faith and smiles and talks to her..it's so cute!

Baseball Crazy!

We are down 2 games to 1 against North Shore. I think the guys got a little mad last night that they lost so I'm hoping they will play their butts off tonight. Lucas, on the other hand has been playing great. I will surely be sad when he retires. He is such a great player!
We took him to dinner last weekend. I asked him if he was sure whether he wanted to quit baseball and he said he's happy with his decision and he's looking forward to what lies ahead of him. He is going to start a church in Virgina and wants to find Mrs. Right and settle down, you can't do that playing baseball. I pray that all his dreams come true for him. I know they will, he has God behind him.

On other fronts..My baby is getting so big! She has started to smile, the other day I was tapping her nose and saying boop, boop and she would smile after i did it. So Cute!

AC Surf's made the playoffs

Just when I thought baseball was winding down..hehe the guys pulled it off and made it to the playoffs! Let me tell you they were very excited..so excited that they LOST the game and the NEXT game..but they redeemed themselves last night and crushed broxton.
(I think the champagne that was thrown and consumed thursday night has finally worn off).
So we have two more games to go then we will be playoff bound. I will get 2 day reprieve then it will be a 3 game stretch. Playoffs are the best of 5 which is good for us, since they can't win more then 3 in a row!
My dear husband is such a nut! He has been eating and sleeping the Surf's this week since they have been home all week. He decided to tell the manager that I am going to be making scrapbook pages(what else am I going to do with all the pictures??) so now when they are complete I have to scan them so I can send them to Chris so he can get them put on the Surf's website! No pressure here!LOL
Go SURF'S!