Happy Birthday to Me!

Today is my 38th birthday!! I Don't feel 38, but do you ever feel your age?? I hope not!! LOL
I have made it a custom to NOT work on my Birthday! Well, I kinda messed up my schedule and I am working at least part of my birthday today..Oh, well. I don't mind because of having Thanksgiving off next week. I am really looking forward to getting away and having more then one or two days off in a row :)
So here is my Birthday wish for the coming year. As I am nudging closer to 40 I realize there are a lot of things in my life I want to accomplish.. So here it is..........
I would like to be able to take my family to Disney World for the first time...BEFORE I'm 40!

I would like to finally get my health in order and get in control of the extra poundage I have gained since having kiddos..

I would like to get published in a scrapbook magaizine:)

I would like to be on another scrapbook design team..One for a big Co. would be nice:)

On a more personal level....

I would like a happier marriage...I want to know my hubby again..

I want a HOUSE!!!

I want to learn how to financial security for my family..

I want a full time job!!

I need to get busy!! LOL


Oh yeah..happy Birthday to my Brother Ed, and my cousin Nicole!! It's never just wishing ME ahappy birthday, it has always come as a package;)

Light bulb Moments

You know them...the moments from out of no where you finally get "it". "It" could be many things. Most of my light bulb moments have been when I have experienced a loss of some kind. A loss of a loved one, a friend moving away, breaking up with a boyfriend..you get the picture..But I have to say these prolific moments have defined me as person..I learned not only what it is to love and to have lost but I also learned the VALUE of love and friendship.
One of those defining moments in my life happened almost 16 years ago..I had tried to kill myself with pills and was unsuccessful at it. I had been through a lot with the reprocussions of my actions and dealing with it all. I was confused and in a mental hell and was not sure of how to dig myself out of it. A member of the Rescue Squad that I belong to died of Malignant Melinoma shortly after my ordeal and as I was standing in the funeral home listening to his sister sing Amazing Grace it hit me like a ton of bricks...I ran out of the service, I couldn't breath, my friends Regan and Sam ran after me..There I sit on the ground sobbing realizing for the first time I was thankful to be alive..I was selfish for wanting to take the easy way out rather then work through my depression. Here I was ready to throw it all away when Scott tried so desperately to hold on to life and couldn't..
My most recent light bulb moment came about 6 months ago as I was typing an email to a friend asking for prayers, sobbing while trying to type..The very thing I was typing about..my relationship with my husband and the toll of his not working has put on our marriage "it" happened.. I heard a voice in my head say.."you are the one that needs to work right now, You are the one who needs to take charge of this family." A peace came over me and I knew my light bulb moments were actually God talking to me, giving me the insight that I needed at that moment..
Listen closely, listen with all your heart and He will speak to you.

Random Thoughts

Sitting here in the quiet of my apartment, listening to my playlist on the computer I have come to realize a few things..

Work would be so much better if I was truly happy going there.. I know exactly when I started to become this way..When I realized that I am under appreciated, under valued and under utilized!!

My children are the BEST thing that God has blessed me with.. I can never say enough thank you's for them:) You know they are from GOd when the Dr. says to you I can't believe you got pregnant!!

I love my husband very much...lately I feel unappreciated. I have been working my tail off the last few months to provide for our family...:you can get off the couch any minute now and do something:

My 38th birthday is rapidly drawing near...not sure how I feel about it. I would love this year to be the year that my dreams come true..

Emilee's First hair Cut

Emilee got her first hair cut yesterday and boy did she need it!! She was such a trooper and seemed to really enjoy the experience..

This is the before picture where she was getting her hair combed and wet..

And here is the starting of the hair cut:

And these are the final photos..and her hair is straight!! It looked great but really wierd at the same time since I have never seen her hair straight before. LOL

Such a Big Girl..

Happy Halloween!!!

It's a warm Halloween and cloudy..hopefully we wont get wet! LOL

Off to get ready, Faith is going as Aurora and Em is Uniqua from Backyardigans..

More to follow..

We are back from Trick or treating and got a little wet. It stayed warm too..the only time I had my jacket on was when it was sprinkling out.

Thankfully the weather held off until after we got home. Right now it pouring!!

This picture is of Emilee before we left. She did not want to put her costume on!! I had to take the hat off as soon as the picture was taken! LOL

This is outside our apartment..

In the car..ready to get candy!!!!!

Miss Faith with a big smile...she's got candy!!!

Miss Em just chillin' with her bag of candy and her cup. I asked her if she was comfy and I got a head shake yes..

And this...was a yard that both girls liked...something that is hard to find since both are scared to death of most Halloween stuff..

Happy halloween!!

Precious Words

Today when I got up Emilee come bounding through the bathroom door to give me the "your up kiss and hug"..when these precious words were said.." Hello Mom" I had tears in my eyes.. I have been waiting for those words to be said.. She's doing well with speech therapy and every day she says more words here and there..
I am so grateful that she's talking..

Faith Turns 7!!

I can't believe it myself but my little girl is 7! Her birthday was this past thursday and she was soooo excited! Daddy decided to take her to Applebee's and she had ice cream and everyone sang Happy Birthday!!
No pictures of this event however because Dad also forgot the camera but I did manage to take a shot or two of her opening her present..She got Birthday Pet Shops ...later in the week we went to the mall where she got the hanna Montana Build a Bear! And to top it off grandma bought her a giftcard for American Girl store so our next rip to New York she will be bringing home her doll!
Come to think of it she had more like a birthday week..MomMom took her out last Saturday and she went to a movie..Cloudy with a chance of Meatballs, dinner at Applebee's and shopping at Target where she got all the Hello kitty clothes they could find!!