Sunday, January 1, 2012

Happy New Year!

Hello Friends,

My girls and I ringing in 2012!

Well, another year has gone by and what a year it was...We saw many things come to pass in 2011..Gas prices have stayed over $3.00, After 10 years of looking, Osama Bin Laden was killed by Navy Seals, we honored and mourned like it was yesterday, the 10th Anniversary of 9/11. Our economic health is still faltering and has caused many to loose everything. Our family struggles day to day providing for our girls..thank God for our landlord who has been so generous when we get behind.

As we pass into 2012 I see a hope and a bright future. I can only pray that it will come to be..I know that God will provide in his time, he already has..I made the decision to end my almost 20 year career in EMS due to my health. He found a new job for me that I love, working in a scrapbooking store and while the pay isn't the greatest and it's almost an hour away, I LOVE helping people preserving their memories..When God closes one door, He always opens a new one. I have found my new path and anxiously await what new surprises He has in store for me!

As I ponder what 40 is going to be for me I have realized a few things..
I need to take better care of me!! I have always provided better for everyone else..I need to get myself healthier, not because I want to look better..but because I want to LIVE longer! I want to be around for my kids, I want to be there for them like my Mom has been there for me! My greatest fear in life is dying before my children are grown and on their own! While I can't predict when God is going to call me home, I can improve my odds of a longer life by taking care of myself!!

I need to get our finances in order..I need to take control once and for all!!

I need a better relationship with my husband. I know he loves me but sometimes I would like to be shown that I am appreciated and loved..it seems to me after 10 years of marriage he has forgotten how. Why is it that way??

I need to learn to be a friend...I have never been really great at it. When I find someone that I can let my guard down with and open up to it always ends with dissappointment and hurt. I know God sends us someone for a reason, to learn from but the hurt has made me go farther into a shell like a hermit..I don't want to be this way but it's comfortable!

I need to continue to nuture my relationship with God!! This above anything else is my top priority this year!! I know God can fix everything else if I just give it to Him and have faith!

So there it is...my list..and if you noticed.. I said Need, not want! I need to do these things for Me and for my happiness, not for anyone else! If someone else is blessed by my needs then that is a double blessing!!

So what are your needs for 2012??