Light bulb Moments

You know them...the moments from out of no where you finally get "it". "It" could be many things. Most of my light bulb moments have been when I have experienced a loss of some kind. A loss of a loved one, a friend moving away, breaking up with a boyfriend..you get the picture..But I have to say these prolific moments have defined me as person..I learned not only what it is to love and to have lost but I also learned the VALUE of love and friendship.
One of those defining moments in my life happened almost 16 years ago..I had tried to kill myself with pills and was unsuccessful at it. I had been through a lot with the reprocussions of my actions and dealing with it all. I was confused and in a mental hell and was not sure of how to dig myself out of it. A member of the Rescue Squad that I belong to died of Malignant Melinoma shortly after my ordeal and as I was standing in the funeral home listening to his sister sing Amazing Grace it hit me like a ton of bricks...I ran out of the service, I couldn't breath, my friends Regan and Sam ran after me..There I sit on the ground sobbing realizing for the first time I was thankful to be alive..I was selfish for wanting to take the easy way out rather then work through my depression. Here I was ready to throw it all away when Scott tried so desperately to hold on to life and couldn't..
My most recent light bulb moment came about 6 months ago as I was typing an email to a friend asking for prayers, sobbing while trying to type..The very thing I was typing about..my relationship with my husband and the toll of his not working has put on our marriage "it" happened.. I heard a voice in my head say.."you are the one that needs to work right now, You are the one who needs to take charge of this family." A peace came over me and I knew my light bulb moments were actually God talking to me, giving me the insight that I needed at that moment..
Listen closely, listen with all your heart and He will speak to you.