Happy Birthday to Me!

Today is my 38th birthday!! I Don't feel 38, but do you ever feel your age?? I hope not!! LOL
I have made it a custom to NOT work on my Birthday! Well, I kinda messed up my schedule and I am working at least part of my birthday today..Oh, well. I don't mind because of having Thanksgiving off next week. I am really looking forward to getting away and having more then one or two days off in a row :)
So here is my Birthday wish for the coming year. As I am nudging closer to 40 I realize there are a lot of things in my life I want to accomplish.. So here it is..........
I would like to be able to take my family to Disney World for the first time...BEFORE I'm 40!

I would like to finally get my health in order and get in control of the extra poundage I have gained since having kiddos..

I would like to get published in a scrapbook magaizine:)

I would like to be on another scrapbook design team..One for a big Co. would be nice:)

On a more personal level....

I would like a happier marriage...I want to know my hubby again..

I want a HOUSE!!!

I want to learn how to financial security for my family..

I want a full time job!!

I need to get busy!! LOL


Oh yeah..happy Birthday to my Brother Ed, and my cousin Nicole!! It's never just wishing ME ahappy birthday, it has always come as a package;)

Light bulb Moments

You know them...the moments from out of no where you finally get "it". "It" could be many things. Most of my light bulb moments have been when I have experienced a loss of some kind. A loss of a loved one, a friend moving away, breaking up with a boyfriend..you get the picture..But I have to say these prolific moments have defined me as person..I learned not only what it is to love and to have lost but I also learned the VALUE of love and friendship.
One of those defining moments in my life happened almost 16 years ago..I had tried to kill myself with pills and was unsuccessful at it. I had been through a lot with the reprocussions of my actions and dealing with it all. I was confused and in a mental hell and was not sure of how to dig myself out of it. A member of the Rescue Squad that I belong to died of Malignant Melinoma shortly after my ordeal and as I was standing in the funeral home listening to his sister sing Amazing Grace it hit me like a ton of bricks...I ran out of the service, I couldn't breath, my friends Regan and Sam ran after me..There I sit on the ground sobbing realizing for the first time I was thankful to be alive..I was selfish for wanting to take the easy way out rather then work through my depression. Here I was ready to throw it all away when Scott tried so desperately to hold on to life and couldn't..
My most recent light bulb moment came about 6 months ago as I was typing an email to a friend asking for prayers, sobbing while trying to type..The very thing I was typing about..my relationship with my husband and the toll of his not working has put on our marriage "it" happened.. I heard a voice in my head say.."you are the one that needs to work right now, You are the one who needs to take charge of this family." A peace came over me and I knew my light bulb moments were actually God talking to me, giving me the insight that I needed at that moment..
Listen closely, listen with all your heart and He will speak to you.

Random Thoughts

Sitting here in the quiet of my apartment, listening to my playlist on the computer I have come to realize a few things..

Work would be so much better if I was truly happy going there.. I know exactly when I started to become this way..When I realized that I am under appreciated, under valued and under utilized!!

My children are the BEST thing that God has blessed me with.. I can never say enough thank you's for them:) You know they are from GOd when the Dr. says to you I can't believe you got pregnant!!

I love my husband very much...lately I feel unappreciated. I have been working my tail off the last few months to provide for our family...:you can get off the couch any minute now and do something:

My 38th birthday is rapidly drawing near...not sure how I feel about it. I would love this year to be the year that my dreams come true..

Emilee's First hair Cut

Emilee got her first hair cut yesterday and boy did she need it!! She was such a trooper and seemed to really enjoy the experience..

This is the before picture where she was getting her hair combed and wet..

And here is the starting of the hair cut:

And these are the final photos..and her hair is straight!! It looked great but really wierd at the same time since I have never seen her hair straight before. LOL

Such a Big Girl..