Thursday, April 10, 2008

Light Bulb Moment

I was unpacking boxes last night and cleaning out drawers and came across some of my journals that I have written. WOW !! What a difference a decade makes!
In particular, these were from my 20's which were very rocky for me. I had really bad bouts of depression and Rereading them I dont think I really liked myself back then. Then I found my depression journal..Very disturbing how really low I actually was back then. The negative thoughts I use to have. It's no wonder that I tried suicide as a way out of all that pain. What's changed you say??
Well Im in my 30's now and for the most part I am way more confident in myself then I use to be. I dont care what other people think of me. I actually me..I am a lot more positive then before..I try to look at the positives as much as possible and remember that God has a plan and I need to be patient and wait for Him.What else has changed??
I found the Love of my life. A man that has always stuck by me and has put me and our children first before anything else. I only recently realized how much we have in common. We shared some of the same friends back in my late 20's but never crossed paths. Not until God wanted us to meet. Not until I was ready and finally admitted to myself that I had to stop my self destructive behavior and finally listen to what God was telling me. Only then did He allow our paths to meet.
You see what can happen when you trust and follow God??So my point of this story is ...No matter the circumstance you are dealing with, no matter how low you may feel, allow yourself to be thankful for what you do have..It can truly change your additude and lift your spirits if you Thank Him for what you have. OK...I am done for now..I wanted to share my light bulb moment I had...

2 comments:

SusieScrapper said...

Hi Kim! Nice story, thanks for sharing.

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