New Beginnings

Sitting here at work, listening to my play list a random thought came to mind..
Everyone deserves a new beginning. Whether you are someone who has fallen from grace or a person who is lead by grace, we all deserve a new beginning..
All the time I hear people have so much to say about what others have done, who they dissappointed, who they have cheated..all the while never really looking at their past mistakes, their own failures.. It is a steep mountain you are clinging on. Sooner or later your gonna fall off and at the end of that day who will be there to hold onto you?? Not too many people I know would want to stand by a person who judges and belittles others all the time. Do you think anyone is gonna catch you now??
We need to stop judging people and by the way that's not our job..God is the one who at the end of our lives Judges us before we enter into heaven. That big black book has all the good we have done but also all the lies, all the betrayals, all the bad stuff you have done too.. So how are you going to measure up??
I know when the good Lord takes me home I hope to have been the best person that I could be. I know that I try every day to respect everyone I come in contact with.. I may not necessarily get along with them but I respect them none the less.
I cherish my family and have loved them unconditionally.
I have compassion for all people..I have worked in a field where I have seen many people take their last breath, suffer great pain and cry for help.
I myself have endured trials and pain of my own but believe that my trials make me a better provider.
I understand at the deepest level where people could take their own lives. I understand the pain and utter despair they feel truly believing that death is better then life. I know the belief of the comfort of that thought brings because the emotional pain you have in your heart wont end. I had those same thoughts and beliefs at one time. I have over come those thoughts of dispair but they are here as a reminder of how I should treat others in that same frame of mind. My ordeal showed me that not all people in health care understand or show compassion to those with mental disease. I endured judgement, disrespect, and utter rudeness when all that I needed was one person to say it would be ok.. It's been 15 years since I overdosed and I can still hear the comments that were said to me that night I cried out for help.. That is why I pass no judgements on anyone..Unless you can walk a mile in their shoes, you need not pass judgement.
I try to fill my life with as much love and happiness as I can. If you do not fill either of those requirements, you exit rather quickly.
I try to be a good friend. At this moment my friends are very few. I have always had issues with maintaining relationships. Some have been my fault but others have betrayed me. I know God sends you people in your life that are only suppose to be around momentarily..usually until you learn the lesson God had intended you to learn.. I guess I had many lessons to learn! LOL
I try to be a fathfull daughter to our Lord. I pray, sometimes not to the degree in which God would want me too but I pray at least every day, sometimes only to say, "Hi and thanks". Other times when I am need guidance I pray longer. It's funny though, the moments I hear God's voice telling me what I need to hear is not at the moment when I pray but rather when I'm quiet, sitting at the computer usually writing something or when I'm in the car..I have come to realize that He talks to you when you least expect it, and most times that is when I really hear what he's saying..
Think about it...Dont pass judgement, listen, be compassionate, and you may just learn something special about that person..

My Family Legacy

I have been researching my family tree for the Faithsisters challenge My Lifetime Story. It has been interesting to see where I really come from and sort through all the old cencus sheets thanks to Ancestory.com( which has been an invaluable tool, I am trying to learn as much as I can in the free two week trial).
I can't tell you how important it is to me to do this. Not only for me but for my Mom. She is the youngest of 12 and her parents were each married once before. My grandparents died when my Mom was a teenager so those family facts were lost. Until only recently she had a brother she had no contact with for over 40 years. My Aunt found him and they went to visit him a few times. He passed away this past Sept. and my Mom didn't even find out until 2 months later! Not a tight family you can say, the family sort of fell apart when my grandmother died.
Cherish your family, cherish your Legacy, and most importantly..Pass it on..

The Popper

How many of you remember the Popper as a kid???
This one that Em is playing with is one of the old fashion kind with the wood handle..It was my grandmother's, she kept it for all the kids to play with. When she died my Aunt Annmarie took it...Now all of my grandmother's Great- grandkids can have as much fun with it as we did!!

Happy New Year!!!

Well it's 2010!! And I slept through all of the excitement!! I was beat last night so I went to sleep at 9:30pm only to wake up at 1:00am and couldn't get back to sleep :( I did finally managed to sleep for a little bit only to awaken to the alarm.. Somebody had to work today, guess it should be me!
Praying that God blesses you abundantly this New Year!!!